I feel change coming. It’s not just the leaves falling and the sun going down earlier each night. This is REAL change.
Change is happening Today! I feel it in my gut and in my soul. When I have this sort of change brewing in me, it presents itself as a form of anxiety, unrest, excitement, and opportunity all at the same time. It is a strange contrast of emotions; a dichotomy, really.
It is happy and scary and melancholy and anticipation all at once and that’s sometimes a hard mix of emotions to figure out. And sometimes, I don’t think I am even supposed to figure them out. And as I become more and more aware of what happens to me and inside me each time change is around the corner, I learn how to go with it…just ride the wave of change and see where it takes me. Don’t fear it. Don’t fight it. Just observe it. And if possible, enjoy it.
But in the midst of it all, I feel a bit uncomfortable. I can’t really describe it, but it’s sort like the Sunday Afternoon blues. I can’t really relax but I can’t really take action. Not quite yet. And though I pride myself on learning to happily live outside my comfort zone, to comfortably take risks, I am learning that sometimes THIS is what living outside my comfort zone feels like. So I am learning that though it doesn’t feel like anything that I would typically call good, it’s best to embrace it as a positive. To observe it even more than I have done before and watch the change happen and learn from it.
Change is coming. But, there is work to be done first. Self work. And that’s the hardest kind.
I know my body, my mind, my heart, the Universe and God are all telling me to listen and pay attention. To take cues and be ready. The time for a change is coming and for me when it starts, it won’t be long until I take action in a new direction. It has started. I can feel it.
My heart is telling me that this time, change isn’t going to be a 180 degree turn, but instead just more concentrated and intentional focus in a direction I have already been moving towards over the last 18 months. It is more of a “Veer” than a U-turn this time.
My gut is telling me to let more things go that aren’t making me happy (really happy) or serving me or my family. Just stop doing them. Completely. For good. Period.
And my mind is telling me that if some of the things I have been doing feel REALLY good and REALLY right, then do more of them and less of everything else. Have the guts to JUST do what I want and what feels right and what makes me happy.
And my soul is telling me that if some choices and decisions are making me happy in some parts of my life and are inspiring me to be better in those areas, and are helping me to inspire others, then bring those same choices and decisions to ALL parts of my life so that I can be inspired and motivated in all I do. And can inspire others ALL the time.
So a change is coming. And soon when it is over, you all may not notice from the outside that I am very different from what you see in me right now. But once it is all said and done, I have a strong feeling, an intuition, that it’s going to be a big one for me internally. Another mental shift. Another life “maker” or moment that I look back on as a big step towards my purpose in life.
How about you…are you in a season of change? Tell me about it. Maybe we can go through it together.